Welcome again to everybody. Make yourself at home. In the time-honoured tradition of our group, here is the weekly discussion thread.
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I have been diagnosed this year by a neuropsychologist with TSA, ADHD, Giftedness and Alexithymia. I’m a fortyish person who all his life though he was the most stupid people alive, yet have achieved a lot of stuff normal people won’t even try.
I have a second degree black belt in Kyukushinkai, a first degree black belt in Tenshin Shōden Katori Shintō-ryū, which was delivered by Goro Hatakeyama. I have been challenged by my old teacher in Kyukushinkai to break a baseball bat, which I did, cement blocks, which I did and to do 25 000 kicks in a row, which I also did. I also did the 100 persons Kumite, which I stupidly did. I know how to brew beer at a very good level, having won a few competitions. I am a master code monkey - I have built the simulator for Janet Echelman, worked on both Unity and Unreal Engine, worked as a team lead in several big tech places, including the propaganda arm of Canada in quebec (radio-canada), worked at most known place in my province. I know how to cook at home chef level, being a modernist cook. I know about 65% of human history. I know a lot of comparative mythology. I have read a lot of philosophy, from plato to marx while reading and hating all those fake modern philosophers from the right. I have planned and done a 9 year TTRPG campaign in fate core were each played played 5 characters ( think post-humans ) I am taking care of two fully grown adult that are cognitively far worst than me ( my wife organization skill are abysmal and the anxiety makes her nearly non-functionnal ) and her brother who is a deeply autistic recovering alcoholic.
So, when I was burnt out, my doc put me on paxil and then effexor and a neurostimulator. Effexor is shit for me, It mess me up completely and so I am on the third month of weaning - I get brain zaps and shakes and tiredness - been like that for months now.
Now I understand I’m not that stupid, just chemically imbalanced.
So, with all that said, do you think the neurostim is good for me ? My doc is a tool so I have to rely on conversations with other persons who have experiences that looks like mine …
I’ve heard mixed things about this. You may be suffering from trauma and need a medication for trauma and tiredness.
That being said, the Vyvanse definitely helps, and that’s what everyone who takes it says that I know of.
But I’ll say this, I feel tired a lot, not due to my ADHD or meds, but because I may have what’s known as chronic fatigue and trauma (well, the trauma I have for sure). I have C-PTSD, which everyone should look up, and try to alleviate.
Ouch!
My wife has CPTSD from being abused as a child. I got her on Prazosin for her nightmare disorder. It’s way better - but not perfect.
I should have trauma, my life story sucks and when I tell people what I went through they mostly disbeleive me.
I am from first nation descent in the apartheid state of canada and most “colonial” canadians don’t understand what it means…
But all anti-depressant I tried just messed me up - made me feel and act very differently from what I usually am. I didn’t like it.
So… How you holding up?