Not sure what to say but it feels like a switch clicked in my head today and my eyes were opened.
Yesterday I bought 2 sixpacks to last me over the holidays and today I saw that they’re empty. And the expensive whisky for special occasions too.
I didn’t even have a reason to drink that much. I’ve officially lost control.
So no more “only on weekends”. Or “not at home” Or “not alone”. Or “not more than 2 beers”. Tried all that, didn’t work.
I am not going to drink today. I don’t need to drink today. What a liberating feeling!
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I tried setting rules like that, it didn’t work, it was exhausting and annoying (setting rules, thinking of ways to break the rules, feeling guilty for breaking the rules, thinking of new rules that’ll absolutely definitely work this time…) Way easier to just not bother with all that by not drinking.
I found it helpful to make a commitment to myself to keep good non-alcoholic drinks in, and I use it as an opportunity to explore that space and find interesting things to drink.
Oh yeah, I got creative with the rules.
“Only on weekends” meant I drank the same amount, just concentrated on Fr-Su.
“Not at home” lead to a 2-beer pit stop on my way home from work, then “going for a walk” after supper.
“Not alone” meant getting a bottle of wine for my wife too, and convincing her to drink with me.
And “not more than 2 beers” made me get the strongest beer available, then switch to whisky.
I went through the same arc- it lead to binge drinking and getting my wife to drink with me, too.
I quit in Dec '22, and I wake up feeling free from booze everyday, seriously. Every day I open my eyes and don’t have that nasty sweet taste on my tongue, or that dry eye & mouth feeling, I am relieved!
Now I’m 60lbs lighter (I DRANK drank), I exercise before work because it turns out I’m a morning person (!?), most of my health issues have resolved, and I’m not throwing away money on poison.
IWNDWYT