The feeling I assumed was anxiety my whole life was gone. The uneasy feeling of dread or that I was forgetting something of terminal importance. The way stuff bounced around in my head and made me ruminate on unnecessary things. I just never had a word for it before now.
This whole time I’ve been in SNRIs that are supposed to help with the same things, but never quite did enough.
I’m only 2 weeks in and it isnt like taking the limitless pill or anything but even just that is a relief rn 🥹
The next realization is that the meds are not meant to allow you to hyperfocus 100% of the time but to moderate your attention to a steady baseline somewhere between hyperfocus and dead to the world.