We are in the same headspace of simultaneous relief and shame! (Well, except that I’m thankfully doing this for hopefully the last time in my life)
If you find yourself procrastinating next time, my advice is try not to beat yourself up about it (easier said than done but it does lighten up with age) - the grief we give ourselves about procrastinating, and the punitive measures, shame, etc… often just make it a lot worse than it already is.
Don’t lose sight of the fact that you have ethics, and a commitment to quality (easy to forget the sheer number of people out there who are genuinely fine with stuff they KNOW is bad because they have no respect for what they are doing).
I’m making less and less sense with my sentences in this damn thing the longer I keep on at it tonight, but it must go tonight… I’m going to add a note to my supervisor along the lines of “I’m sorry if this is completely incoherent gibberish, I’m not sure how conscious I am right now”
Wow, how bittersweet is that, doing this for the last time in your life! Good luck with the rest of your work tonight, and hopefully you get a good rest in!
I’ve got a year and a half left but it feels like I’m going to end up doing more ~~ continuing
to torture myself.~~
Oh I’ll tell you now… it’s about 97% sweet and 3% bitter - I cannot be more relieved that I won’t be doing any further academic study after this. I think I need years of therapy to recover from this last assault and re-opening of old wounds plus heaps of new grief bahahaha.
I’ve FINALLY managed to send through a draft that ain’t gonna get published anywhere but at least is in complete sentences! Time to sleep before going to work. Hope you manage to get a good night’s sleep too!
You two are doing amazing. And take it from a life long procrastinator - it never really changes you just gotta try to let go of the shame. Some people need time for thoughts to digest before they can spew them out at the last moment.
One of my favourite sayings is ‘if something is worth doing it’s worth doing poorly’. Running a dishwasher that’s half new and half stuff you haven’t unloaded, it’s fine. Better to get something out and assessed even if it’s not perfect. It’s a hell of a lot better then it would be if it were not done. Nothing will ever match the idea in your head, but it probably doesn’t need to. Big hugs
We are in the same headspace of simultaneous relief and shame! (Well, except that I’m thankfully doing this for hopefully the last time in my life)
If you find yourself procrastinating next time, my advice is try not to beat yourself up about it (easier said than done but it does lighten up with age) - the grief we give ourselves about procrastinating, and the punitive measures, shame, etc… often just make it a lot worse than it already is.
Don’t lose sight of the fact that you have ethics, and a commitment to quality (easy to forget the sheer number of people out there who are genuinely fine with stuff they KNOW is bad because they have no respect for what they are doing).
I’m making less and less sense with my sentences in this damn thing the longer I keep on at it tonight, but it must go tonight… I’m going to add a note to my supervisor along the lines of “I’m sorry if this is completely incoherent gibberish, I’m not sure how conscious I am right now”
Wow, how bittersweet is that, doing this for the last time in your life! Good luck with the rest of your work tonight, and hopefully you get a good rest in!
I’ve got a year and a half left but it feels like I’m going to end up doing more ~~ continuing to torture myself.~~
Oh I’ll tell you now… it’s about 97% sweet and 3% bitter - I cannot be more relieved that I won’t be doing any further academic study after this. I think I need years of therapy to recover from this last assault and re-opening of old wounds plus heaps of new grief bahahaha.
I’ve FINALLY managed to send through a draft that ain’t gonna get published anywhere but at least is in complete sentences! Time to sleep before going to work. Hope you manage to get a good night’s sleep too!
You two are doing amazing. And take it from a life long procrastinator - it never really changes you just gotta try to let go of the shame. Some people need time for thoughts to digest before they can spew them out at the last moment.
One of my favourite sayings is ‘if something is worth doing it’s worth doing poorly’. Running a dishwasher that’s half new and half stuff you haven’t unloaded, it’s fine. Better to get something out and assessed even if it’s not perfect. It’s a hell of a lot better then it would be if it were not done. Nothing will ever match the idea in your head, but it probably doesn’t need to. Big hugs