I have gone full circle, why worry about the inevitable destruction of the empire you live in when you can love the destruction itself. Also I may get to kill a lot of people I fucking hate if I get lucky, how I wish to strangle the life out of men like Ken Ham.
not even close but at least lately a bit better than last couple months
No. I’m pretty burnt out.
Everything I read on burnout says that the best (only?) way to treat it is to reduce or remove whatever is causing such chronic, disproportionate stress. Unfortunately, much of my burnout is caused by the most basic aspects of living (partly because I have disabilities that make it hard to reliably fulfill my basic needs, even with support).
Given that cutting out the bad stuff isn’t an option, I’ve been trying to instead add more good stuff to my life, in hopes that it will increase my capacity and thus reduce my relative level of burnout. I’m so tremendously tired though. I’m trying so hard because I do want to live, and there are things I feel I can offer the world. However, sometimes, in my exhaustion, I find myself thinking wistfully about the depression I felt as a young adult — it was simpler when I genuinely and wholeheartedly wanted to die. In some ways, it was easier to be hopeless and merely staying alive for other people.
I’m just tired.
Not at all. Thanks for asking.
I’m sorry to hear that what’s going on?
If it’s okay with you I’d like to share that privately.
Go on
I’m quitting all my jobs and will be unable to afford housing very soon. (again)
But at least I will be able to breathe.
You can do it! None of us will be able to afford anything anyway once the recession really kicks in.
I don’t even believe in god, but I’m still praying for you.
The horrors persist, But so do I
My long time girlfriend that cheated on me and got pregnant is solely confiding in me because she found out the other guy cheated on her. I’m an innocent and relatively quiet guy. I feel like I’m being pulled into a black hole.
Turn off your phone and hide. Or just straight up tell her to fuck off. You know, as a third party, you can help people but you’re in too deep, it’s best for you to cut off all ties. Who has the time to deal with this bullshit fuckery? Plus, I can show you a real black hole. Say No, Baby Mama Drama.
go with your gut instinct. if you feel like you’re being pulled into a black hole, you are.
I recoiled very hard when I read this… im not sure what you will do next, but good luck man. reach out if you need a random person to talk to.
You should tell her you used to know that guy, and he has HIV.
Doesn’t have to be true, but fuck her! I mean, not with your penis, because ew, but just in general. To hell with her! Gaslight the fuck out of her, and give her anxiety and crippling depression. Act like you’re being a supportive ex, while at the same time driving her to the depths of insanity.
Bonus points if you can convince her that the guy actually died 10 years ago, and she slept with a ghost.
I’m not ok, but I’m gonna be alright.
Every little thing…
Pretty shite, honestly. Going to be a bit of a piece of shit until Friday at 5, at which point I’ll be disappearing from society for a few days
Ah, the weekend bender. When you wake up Tuesday morning, take a shower, and wonder why you have a “welcome to Michigan” bumper sticker slapped on your ass.
…when did you go to Michigan?
Tea-totaler actually, unless it’s a REALLY bad week. Then my friend Jack comes for a visit and things get even more fucked up.
More of just a hermit.
Yeah. Fine. You ok?
At the risk of sounding corny or edgy, I feel like I’m balancing on the edge of light and dark. Sometimes I’m very righteously angry with the world and then later I feel stupid about the anger or even shame. Trying to be more positive but negativity is so easy to slip back into when you’re not looking and every slip or meltdown feels like you’ve reset your progress.
Trying to come out of the shadows and make friends and community and shit but I let myself down in that regard a lot. Life could be better but a lot of it is what you make of it too.
I’ve noticed a correlation with me skipping yoga, meditation, avoiding excessive phone usage and my stress levels rising, sleep worsening and mood dips.
Thanks for the check up, I’ll try to take my health more serious!
I think I’m doing well all things considered, thanks!
The only reason I can’t speak for certainty is because of my anxiety from well… gesters at what’s happening to my country. This anxiety is also making my executive distinction worse which is probably my biggest day-to-day challenge at the moment.
gesters at what’s happening to the country
Yeah…that’ll do it. I don’t even know which country specifically you’re from. I assume one of the ones on Earth. And honestly that whole planet is a flaming dumpster fire.
Except Antartica.
Yeah, that one is just a melting dumpster… slushy?
Yep the whole thing is fucked it’s bound to effect other things
not great TBH tanks for asking. no one asks me anymore. its nice to read. even tho its not personally directed itll do.
It’s ok I really want to know
i post enough of my bullshit. if you get to them before i delete they will give you an idea.
There are times when I hang out with someone and I’ll be unbelievably happy for a couple days afterwards. Then I begin to feel a bit sad and unmotivated for a few days after that because I want more of that happiness they gave me. That kind of happiness high can be a bit intense.
I have only a small handful of friends these days but the ones I have now are able to show me trust, appreciation and love so easily. Something that has not been very common in my life in general.
I just keep reminding myself that there are people who genuinely care about me as I am and it gets a bit easier to motivate myself again. Little by little.
Also helps that my parents stopped watching the 24 hour news channel so much. Not hearing the news has saved a bit more of my shrinking sanity.
