I’ve posted here a lot about my mental health, I lost basically everything, I have no one I can talk to, my car is wrecked, I have less than 100 bucks in my bank account, while I have housing their are problems that make it not the best. I have 1k in debt.
In terms of my housing, I lived with some members a activist group for a bit, but they got too extreme the the point where they think me wanting to pay of my debt, save up for a car is individualist and me wanting to go college is carrierist.
Another thing is I’m an unattractive trans fem, que transphobia, I know y’all are gonna laugh like hell when I blow my brains out, some of y’all might be like THIS IS THE Consequences OF GENDER IDEOLOGY.
I just really don’t see a way forward at all, I felt like there isn’t much for me in this world anymore. Everytime I call a suicide hotline I get the dumbest most braindead advice like do an activity I enjoy as if that changes any of the material conditions of my life.
My plan is to have a dead switch, so when I do die 911 is called to help avoid any unnecessary trauma. It’s crazy to think 22 years ends like this.
And let this fucked up world have another win? Fuck that. You’re stronger than that. If for no other reason, keep going out of spite in the face of everything you stand against. You can only be a middle finger to life’s bullshit if you live.
Yea I’m with this guy. Fuck the trolls. Fuck everyone. Show them by proving that you don’t need to fit in their system to thrive.
Everyday I keep going worse shit happens, today I was yelled at by a cop for walking around. He nearly assaulted me. Shit doesn’t get any better once so ever.
Didn’t say it would get better. Those people you talk about want you to give up. Don’t give those pieces of shit what they want.
You only get one chance at the experience of life, don’t throw it away. I will die of cancer soon. Somewhere out there is your other half. Be patient enough to find them.