I was actively at a 6 for many years. A lot of my family used to make fun of me because I would never buy a gun, saying stuff like “oh are you against gun ownership or something?”

It took a lot to not snap at them “no I love guns but if I owned one I know it would one day end up pointed at my temple”

Now I have a girlfriend and while life’s still hard, I don’t have those thoughts anymore. Still won’t buy a gun though