I’ve been on HRT for two years, why do I still look like a man, why do I still look like this, why is my dystphoria worse than ever. Why do I hate myself so much. Why haven’t I’ve been loved and snuggled. Im just so sad with everything honestly can’t sleep.
Your perceptions do not reflect reality. You look like a young woman. And you are not going to believe any of us no matter how many times we say it.
Unless you believe you were mistaken in wanting to be a woman, stay on HRT. Unless you believe your depression is caused by the HRT, stay on the HRT.
If you are depressed because you think you don’t look like a woman, stopping HRT will not help.
There isn’t much we can do on a discussion to help. A few kind comments and well wishes are not an effective treatment for depression. Do you have people in your life who you can go to for help? You need longterm help and support which is something a discussion community like this can’t reasonably offer.