How not just give up? There is nothing left, no viable career options, hobbies are pointless because there’s just no improvement past certain point anyway, no alleviation to the fucking constant hurt that’s AuDHD. And nobody gets it, nobody.
Any insight, other than “seek help”, would be welcome right about now.
I went through school under-achieving due to hostile environments and lack of support. Masking half a life-time left me traumatized and chronically tired. I can’t fathom how anyone with these cards can muster up the will and courage to put the mask back on to have an edge at the job-market. Even the thought of a job interview paralyzes me.
I have no idea where such a magical land would be, where a burnt out, under-achieving AuDHD person would fit it.
Due to decades of nearly 100% negative interactions, I’ve almost completely isolated myself. I know it’s not good, but just don’t see how to interact without submitting myself to more harrassment and misunderstandings.
Yeah, I’ve found ways to get things done, just the motivation and reward is completely lost at this point.