Go read through my posts if you want some more early days experiences.

Have I got news for you…

Smol gobermint… parnets roigts

Thank you ❤️

Awe! Thank you so much, rose!

I keep all my old photos, every once in a while I’ll be talking to someone about things and decide I want to see a chronically depressed cadaver go through the motions of… I don’t even really know what… just tons of pictures.

I got pictures of me blackout drunk staring disdainfully in a mirror, pictures of me trying to feign happiness in hundreds of locations at Disney World, pictures documenting the all day drinking and running through the woods at full bore on a 4 wheeler hoping I’d just smash my skull into a tree and die, the daily fire I would make when it was too dark to keep driving drunk through the woods and spend my nights getting more drunk hoping I’d pass out and get killed by wolves.

Sure, If it was life or death I could find a smile or a happy photo, but almost all of them are stoic at best and I’m going to keep them.

That poor fuck held on for something, and in his misery he gave me a life worth living, and for that he deserves his respect and honors. I cannot hate him or erase him. He hurt for so long, he wanted an undying death, and I myself gave him his wish.

Of course, you should do what is best for you, I just have been diving a bit too far into how the Ship of Theseus problem intersects with my identity and personality here lately and have decided I literally AM a different person and that’s okay and consistent with me being the same person I always was, just with less repression.

“I know we got rid of polling places and redistricted everything for the eighth year creating longer lines than ever in order to disincentivize civil participation by regular people, but those folks over there handing out bottles of water to people waiting in the sun to exercise their rights is rigging elections!”

That is definitely one of the takes of all time

I think that fundamentalist views come from a lack of knowledge of the religion itself. Seems kinda suspect that your pastor went to seminary and learned that historically the Jews didn’t come from Egypt but the land of Canaan, had zero cultural exchange with Egypt, and did the same things they called the canaanites evil for (looking at you sacrificing your daughter Jepthah), but with a straight face will preach the exodus and plagues to an ignorant congregation.

I was so Christian it became incompatible with modern Christianity, and I’m not the only one.

The truth doesn’t fear the light, or being asked questions and cross examined, and Christian’s fear nothing greater to the point they have to pretend the ultimate evil big bad is creating the questions, and not the lies they told us for centuries.

If the demarcation point is adulthood, it seems reasonable to believe the “younger gen z attend church or think religion is important” probably shows more that their parents make them go than anything.

‘cause right now all we have is time, time, time, and someday that time will run out, that’s the only thing we can be absolutely certain about.

10 Things - Paul Baribau

I’m on hormones, just sucks having to deal with the feelings and knowing it’s a waiting game.

At least I’m doing something though.

In between desperate gasping for air worth breathing and times worth living

Pat the Bunny

Texas can’t even keep its own electric grid up because of their isolationist attitude. I’d honestly love to see how it would go if all the tax and federal aid were to suddenly dry up. That’s not even getting into having a passport to leave the state, tariff on imports, taxes on exports, then getting retaxed to come into the United States.

I wonder how firearms legislation would wind up.

Texas also most likely would be unable to produce its own ammunition and would have one fuck of a time establishing trade routes that would be forced to go through the Gulf of Mexico, an easy target with only one way out between two corridors. Given that the whole thing was over Mexico border enforcement, something tells me land trade wouldn’t be very reliable if it were feasible.

My brother has an OSRS account he named post rave blues, certainly relatable.

It’s all good there is no advice.

Thank you for the kind words about my writing style. It’s been a new compulsion of mine to document things. Everyone always told me to journal, but I didn’t see the point documenting the things I was desperately seeking any escape from.

I’m definitely lacking the foot ware. Most of my shoes were leather boots, about 5 months ago I branched out and got some khaki sneakers and some white sneakers.

Thanks Ellie, kind of a radical idea that I deserve a life worth living.

I’ll have to remember that

See, this demonstrates the oppression inherent in the system, only people with economic freedom and the means to bring their own pencil to the ballot box are able to choose to eat ass or silica.

I assume you were trying to reply to me.

In some parts of christian purity culture, specifically for mormons allegedly, they think it’s a big no no to have sex before marriage. They’ve come up with loopholes to avoid actually having sex but come as close to it as possible. Soaking is when you penetrate someone and just let it sit there with no movement. Allegedly on the BYU college campus, it is popular to go “soaking” while a friend of yours jumps on the bed nearby you to create the sensation of motion, this act is called “jump humping”.

If you want to see a parody of sex, just go, Google search “soaking” and “jump humping”. Purity culture ends up in some weird places.

You wanna help me leave the state? Everywhere I’ve reached out to doesn’t accept me because technically I’m “protected“ by discrimination laws, but if you want to help my family and I move to a more hospitable environment, we’d be appreciative.

Edit: you know what, fuck all this victim blaming bullshit. I can’t even go to Disney Springs without being picketed and called a groomer by literal Nazi’s, do you think fucking Disney is unaware of the loud vocal nazis and refusing to do anything about it? These motherfuckers get to terrorize me and my family regardless sanctioned by the police because next to the Nazi flag is a DeSantis one and “Freeze Peach”.

I was living out near Millerville, I would’ve been way sketch out there compared to the twin cities. I imagine Bemidji would be nice too. I’m glad you have a safe area to be you!