Hiking in the desert last spring and all the sudden it hit me, I never thought of it before and boom. I considered myself a semi normal guy and never knowingly had any interactions with trans folks until the morning of my outing.
After taking 3 month shots of Lupron for medical reasons for a year and a half, my doctor put me on a 6 month shot, a few weeks later I started having severe anxiety, I worried about everything and everybody, I was tense and emotional, had empathy like I’ve never known, after searching around, I decided I was having female menopause type episodes from having extremely low testosterone. I rode the emotions a few weeks and started feel a little loose physically, and just surfed the waves mentally
While waiting in line to get some direction for my hike I clocked a woman and thought ,Oh she knows what hormones do to emotions wish I could talk to her about it. Of course I didn’t, but I thought about her during the hike. My thinking was, she just said to herself fuck this I’m a girl and did it. I rolled that in my head the rest of the day and pretty much decided that’s what I’m going to do. I’m 67, been a happy go luck guy my whole life, I would describe myself as your screwed up relative that never got their shit together but are happy with their life. After I got back home I asked around in the r/ place talked my oncologist into some patches and feel really incredibly grateful to have stumbled into this at the backend of my life.
The last 2 nights I’ve watched a couple of documentary’s on Max Summer of Soul about the 1969 Harlem music festival and How They Got Over about black gospel quartets from the 30s to the60s, I enjoyed both films , but the kicker is when I listened to this song this morning I jumped from the computer, kind of teared up, got through the song and stopped the player. A few hours later I listened to the rest of the compilation great stuff, then put on that 1st song again and started twitching, stopped waited a few seconds started again the same thing happened so, either I need to see a doctor,music gave me a orgasm or I had a come to J. R. “Bob” Dobbs moment, but the music films must have had something to do with it