Been making internet ads more reliable for a few years now. That’s literally my entire job. Making sure that ads get shown on your computer screen with as little errors as possible. I was able to handle it okay at first because it pays well and I have no ability to get another job (combination of awful labor market and low experience) but I’ve been dissociating hard af and have started to get incredibly dark thoughts while at work (I’m perfectly fine outside of it) the last few weeks
It’s not even a fake email job, it’s pretty complex and has a decently high workload too so I can’t just screw around. I actually need to be able to focus deeply for hours every day which is now almost impossible because of how empty and dreadful it’s been making me
Haven’t quit because I’m supporting my partner as well who makes no money living their desired career
That’s what I told myself the last few years to make it this far but it’s not enough anymore
Just start sabotaging
It’s honestly not much easier sabotaging from the inside than from the outside
Everything is insanely locked down and needs a superior to approve
That sucks, where I’m at I can just hit a delete key and take out the entire company.
I guess you have to find another job then? I just don’t want you to blame yourself or worse, because it’s not a situation you created