Been making internet ads more reliable for a few years now. That’s literally my entire job. Making sure that ads get shown on your computer screen with as little errors as possible. I was able to handle it okay at first because it pays well and I have no ability to get another job (combination of awful labor market and low experience) but I’ve been dissociating hard af and have started to get incredibly dark thoughts while at work (I’m perfectly fine outside of it) the last few weeks
It’s not even a fake email job, it’s pretty complex and has a decently high workload too so I can’t just screw around. I actually need to be able to focus deeply for hours every day which is now almost impossible because of how empty and dreadful it’s been making me
Haven’t quit because I’m supporting my partner as well who makes no money living their desired career
First off, I sympathize. All this stuff we’re submerged in is exhausting and suffocating. Nothing has meaning and yet everything is overbearing and stressful.
How do you relate to your coworkers? If you hate them, maybe you’ll find some catharsis in this article (probably don’t read it if you like your coworkers/feel like there’s potential to organize with them)
How do you feel about Camus? If you really want to torture Sisyphus take away his rock, things of that nature?
Lol I’ve read that article and some others and it’s exactly how I’ve felt about this industry for a long time
Most my coworkers have usually been some combination of open Indian Hinduvists, purge all the homeless suburbanites, anti-woke incels, and now Zionists have also revealed themselves openly (cheering on the crackdown and deportation of student protestors)
I’m sorry you’re surrounded by fascists. I think there’s something a lot worse about being alone in the void of cynicism that the kind of work you’re describing brings on.