Been making internet ads more reliable for a few years now. That’s literally my entire job. Making sure that ads get shown on your computer screen with as little errors as possible. I was able to handle it okay at first because it pays well and I have no ability to get another job (combination of awful labor market and low experience) but I’ve been dissociating hard af and have started to get incredibly dark thoughts while at work (I’m perfectly fine outside of it) the last few weeks
It’s not even a fake email job, it’s pretty complex and has a decently high workload too so I can’t just screw around. I actually need to be able to focus deeply for hours every day which is now almost impossible because of how empty and dreadful it’s been making me
Haven’t quit because I’m supporting my partner as well who makes no money living their desired career
Start looking for a different job and use the possibility of a new job as a bit of hope. You mention lack of experience, but also that you job is pretty complex which has to translate into gaining some kind of new, marketable skill.
Also, I’d talk to your partner and explain your feelings about your current employment. It isn’t fair for them to be able to pursue their chosen career while you carry the burden of keeping the 2 of you afloat unless they contribute in some other meaningful way.
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