Went to the pharmacy to pick up my meds yesterday, and they didn’t have my anti-psychotic. This is my first major hurdle since being out of rehab, since drinking was the only way I coped with being without my anti-psychotic. What sucks is that this happened on memorial day weekend so I can’t get this solved until Tuesday. Wish me luck y’all, it’s gonna be a shitty weekend :/
But no matter how bad it gets, I’m not gonna drink about it
As a person who has had strong desire for alcohol and is an alcoholic, this reasoning unfortunately doesn’t hold up well. Because, for me at least, it was this sucks… but I COULD be drunk and it might suck less. I was the kind of alcoholic who’d down a 9% tallboy before work some days just to ease into my day. At 3am.
That said, to OP, you’ve got this. It feels like a long time, especially if it’s your first out of rehab. Try to keep yourself busy. Find something to read, a video game to lose yourself in. Go on walks. I like bike rides, if that’s your thing. I just went and rode a few miles of trails yesterday because I was having a rough mental health day.
If you need someone to talk at hit me up. The only thing that sucks more than falling off, to me, is having to start sobriety all over again.
Good luck friend!
Playing it forward to the next day has helped me a bit. Sure this sucks, and sure I could go to the store right now, but what about tomorrow? How will I feel tomorrow about all of it while hungover?