35 M.
My depression and loneliness had fucked me over enough last year and since I quit my abusive job (underpaid, boss screaming at job, no benefits, hated everyone, shit conditions) things aren’t getting better. The fact I can’t get a job even at a fast food sucks (some of you Americans complain about having that job, you’re LUCKY to have that)… Job apps don’t work or always ask for experience, I can’t even get an Amazon warehouse job. Nobody calls and no, you can’t just knock random doors of business expecting to give you a job, even worse if you’re an immigrant.
My mother has enough of me living with them and I can’t blame her I’m old ass virgin dude that will never get married but seems that everything is against me and I’ll never move out. The world decided to just fuck me over. Again, the fact I can’t get a job is killing me. And no, I don’t have money for studies and this country doesn’t offer trade jobs education for people like me, I need the money NOW. Shit, I controlled this shitty town web page and hasn’t been updated in a year. The job help is a joke.
Sometimes I googled painless ways to die.
You might not want this but I’m gonna keep it positive. From my point of view, you have nothing to lose. Take those chances you’ve been mulling over and just try for it. I dont know if you had any ambitions but now is the time to tape a rocket to your back and see if you’ll make it before it explodes. Now is the time to trap executives on the walks to their cars for lunch and shove your skills in their face. Now is the time to create whatever has been living in the forgotten dunes of your mind. If you think this leap of faith would land better back with your father go back, if you think there is more unreachable opportunity where you are then stay put. I know its impossible with no money, but people have squared a circle before and now is the best time to do it. You have nothing to lose, let that free you and launch you to higher strata.
This is the advice you need OP. It’s going to feel like shit to take rejection after rejection. But the reality is that success is the 2000th attempt after 1999 rejections, but only if you’re actively trying something new each time. You can do it.
I’m sorry I’m I won’t do that. I’ve being humiliated enough, and I’ve seen some inept people getting jobs, I guess I’m cursed.
I don’t think you understand. What’s skills? People want expensive studies skills, nobody wants middle school education with bad accent speaking their language. I won’t stalk people just to be insulted or accused. You just said it, it’s impossible.
You said 1 year of unemployment, what were you doing while last employed? Those things count as skills too.
Then say fuck it and watch Brackeys’ Godot tutorials. Make games. You’re in the perfect position and Godot is easy.