I totally understand wanting to escape, but psychedelics are kind of like a risky shortcut. The experiences they bring can actually be reached naturally, like through meditation or even lucid dreaming. With lucid dreaming, you can explore your subconscious and control your dreams—no substances needed. And if you’re curious, melatonin can help with lucid dreaming too. It regulates your sleep cycle and can enhance REM sleep, which is where vivid dreams happen. When you take it in the right amount, it can help you become more aware of your dreams, making it easier to control them. So instead of turning to psychedelics, which can mess with your brain, why not dive into things like meditation or lucid dreaming? They offer the same kind of mind-expanding experiences, but they’re safer and something you can actually train yourself to do.

Psychedelics are like throwing fireworks around your brain. It’s a shortcut but keep in mind the people who write it is life changing experience the same amount of people can’t write it because it was life ending. Maybe if you want the shortcut do it with supervisor.

I wouldn’t recommend because it is a shortcut. You have to understand and feel though.

Go to Thailand (Koh Phangan for example) and speak with the teenagers and young adults who shroom the first time. They really can’t see the big picture. Nobody can see the big picture because there is no bigger picture. We are just recieving a ton of input by hearing, seeing, feeling, tasting, smelling and creating images. It is not more and not less. Some people believe in a god or some other things to hold on to something during this ride but in the end it is all an illusion that will end somewhere from birth to death and no one knows when and after that it is over. No god, no respawn, no nothing, just like the state of prebirth. It is what it is. I am not judging if it is good or bad to believe but it gives motivation. I believe too, I believe that my energy will be released after death and I will be part of the universe again. I won’t feel, I won’t hear, I won’t see, I won’t smell and I won’t taste - just like prebirth. But I am here. I say believe, because I do not know and I can’t know.

Hm weird, I left religion and now I am labeled as “Konfessionslos”. Dont pay anything to a church or anything that has to do with this fairytale story.

In my country we have “Konfessionslos” -> non-denominational.

Autumn really does have an intoxicating allure, doesn’t it? Those foggy mornings wrap everything in a thick blanket of mystery, where the world feels muted and hushed. As the sun sinks lower, the shadows stretch and twist, creating dark corners that seem to hold secrets—and maybe something more sinister.

When the nights grow longer, there’s an electric tension in the air, a feeling that something is lurking just out of sight. The leaves crunch beneath your feet, each step echoing like a heartbeat, while the lake lies still, a dark mirror that reflects not just the fading light, but the whispers of things that hide in the depths.

As the chill settles in, it’s easy to imagine figures moving just beyond your vision, lurking in the fog. The beauty of the season mingles with a creeping sense of unease, as if the very air is thick with stories waiting to unfold—tales of things that thrive in the dark, where the line between the living and the shadows blurs. Isn’t it fascinating how autumn invites that darker side to play?

So I am basically vacuum cleaning my tip lol

I think I should start cleaning for Snoop Doogg

Interesting. I never worked for rich.

But I was just assuming based on my own personality that I seem to give more back to society now than I did a decade ago because of how good my income now is.

I never really supported local events (charity) but now I do.

Thanks… I always wanted to, even just for talking. So I am open for it… but I struggle making an appointment and searching for therapist.

Where I live it isn’t an issue but it takes like 6 months til you might get an appointment… so I often just say “screw it”

I don’t even know what I should write… like come on, what the…

Like if I wasn’t lucky those could have been my parents.

TV will be opposite of window mounted to the wall

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Well the room is perfectly made for where the sofa is and where the TV will be mounted on (wall).

The window I can completly darken by letting down the electronic shades. Same goes for the huge door window, has raffstores outside I can let down and get the room to about I’d say 85% darkness during day. I don’t get any sunlight into the living room because of the roof of the terrace but I get a lot of indirect light into the room.

So basically my room can’t be hit by sunlight…

Moment I have a picture. But now outside there is a roof… because this pic is a year old.

The closest experience I ever experienced in my life was my prelife form without a physical body.

I can’t say if it was relaxing, scary, unfulfilling or any thing. I was in a state of time being meaningless.

One day when I quit existing I will return and hopefully remain in that state for a long time until I start existing again. I have never been asked if I wanted to exist so I just exist until I quit existing

Not giving a single F about anything.

I wish I could return to the state I was during pre birth. I have been given a small time frame of giving f’s though until I will return to that state I desire to be in.

In about 50 years if nothing out of my control wipes me out I will return to being non existent.

Thinking about this makes me wonder, I havent given a single f since the big bang and now I am thrown on to a globe and a large handful of people passively forcing me to do. I have to be. I never had the option to not be. Lets see where this goes

Thanks. Yes I am adding more color with curtains and hanging plants, clock etc

Im not really done yet in that regard becsuse I havent moved in yet

You can dislike people but violence is never good.

Maybe will do one day, but I matched the color of the faucet, handles etc. anthracite because I have a visible steel beam in front of the kitchen in anthracite that matches well

Die Lücken sollen so sein, also die wurden mit größerer Fuge bestellt und wurden eingeklippt

Honestly earth.

Here is so much undiscovered that could help us understand space a lot better.